i don't know if i did the right thing.
but a lost is a lost after all.
the sadness will always be there.
why must it be an all-or-none thing huh?
like action potential.
why can't it be an intermediate thing?
sadsadsad.

sigh.
i have a weakness. (or is it one? i'm not sure)
i seem to expect quite alot from the people whom i deem important in my life.
that's why i'm always very sad if even basic expectations are not met.
haha poon and i used to quarrel alot over expectations not met.
but i guess it's part and parcel of any relationship.
i can't bring myself to care and expect less.
cos to do so, that person is no longer important to me anymore.
this is a lesson learnt. oh well.
dot must learn to let go.
dot must fight for her happiness. (:
GOGOGO. (agogo bells?)

haha i guess i'll still care for you.
i'll still pray for you. (:
but i think i shouldn't ask for anything in return alr la.
i won't expect much.
then won't be so sad wheee.
it's hard.
but dot will try her best!

please be happy.
i sincerely hope you will.
hmmm do you even read this? i wonder.

stupid nude people keep tagging on my tagboard.
GET LOST.

anyway,
sleepover with toh, tan and chan this week.
whee can't wait!
pray for toh's happiness.
tan's friendship and health.
chan's projected grades that poor thing.
"jiayou having fun!" funny ah tan.
but thanks tan. i felt much better.
feels weird calling them by their surnames.

feeling incoherent.

esplanade please reply my email!

actually somehow i wish that few years down the road,
everything will be alright.
and we'll be true friends.


there she goes
11:39 PM