haha my internet died when i was typing halfway on sat. at least my entry didn't disappear. so this was what i wrote..
woah. this has been a VERY tiring week. okay la. in fact, i have already been lethargic since 3rd jan. i was so sleepy i fell asleep at some point of time during sectionals. i even dozed off while texting. i kept typing gibberish and i had to re-type quite a few times. and i often have to struggle to keep my eyes open.
anyway i can't believe i taught a freshman today (eh freshwoman?). i didn't do much, merely repeating what andrew taught me last year. i was practically thrown back into the past, exactly one year back, when i was the one down there struggling to even produce a sound with my mouthpiece. it was so... nostalgic.
now to think of it, it's been absolutely amazing how He brought me through all these. the truth was staring right at my face then that this band journey i was embarking on wasn't going to be easy at all. and it sure wasn't. (look at fantasy variations, rhapsody!) although i'm really grateful for all the help my SLs and my section has given me, but the one i have to give thanks to the most, is God.
mindy pointed out a good point today during her prayer. she said not to lean on our own strengths, but God's. how true. who are we without Him? i guess on this rocky road down to SYF, i must learn to trust God and depend on Him for the strength and determination i need. and of course, be thankful.
our God is an awesome God He reigns from Heaven above with wisdom, power and love our God is an awesome God (:
there she goes
9:31 PM
Saturday, January 20
for poon!
there she goes
10:10 AM
Monday, January 15
it sure feels terrible being taken for granted, doesn't it?
anyway, i like rhapsody (YAY FINALLY, after going through the piece in my head like many many times)! (: even though it's of such high level of difficulty for someone like me. but it's just so... cleverly-composed. nicee.
so tired.
there she goes
11:02 PM
Friday, January 5
this is gonna be a helluva crazy year.
ahhhh.
i don't know what to feel anymore. i shocked jiahui today with my moodswings even though i was only joking with her. should i feel happy? should i feel sad? please tell me, for i can't even control my own mood. i think i suck more than gravity la.
oh well. at least the FDSS was rather long-lasting. i've got a few 'high' moments today. not bad at all huh. i just pray this wave of sadness will subside soon.
we watched this performance art video by matthew barney today. no he's not a purple dinosaur, but he's freaking cool! okay la i admit that his art really shocked me. and stumped me. we were like HARRR I DON'T UNDERSTAND LEH. i can almost imagine the faces of the old french art academy people if they saw this kind of artwork centuries back. they'll probably go eat oil paints and commit suicide.
eh but i think acrylic paints are edible leh. o.O
eeee. today so embarrassing. =(( so much for a smiley year.
