there she goes
10:23 PM



farewell assembly's coming soon!
and guess what we're gonna sing for our dearest, most beloved PEEE?

"if we hold on together" by diana ross.
thanks jeremy.
we so wanna hold on to her and never let go. (:

*rolls eyes*
more like if we hold on together, our nightmares will never die please.

c'mon isn't it supposed to be OUR farewell.
amanda's right, wrong focus.
as what sophia said, we should hold a welcome ceremony for the new one instead. (:

i know i'm mean.
but i never liked her from the start anyway.
and i'm not alone thinking this way.
there must be a reason why someone is so disliked on such a large scale eh.

ahha. we see better days ahead for our school.
just hope the new one will remove the stupid yellow lines and change the librarian who seems to be perpetually on menopause.


i miss mdm mak and ny. =(


there she goes
10:57 PM



i'm feeling less depressed now.
after doing some math.

hmmmm. first time.


there she goes
10:20 PM



i shouldn't have assumed. it makes an ass out of u and me. yeah but in this case it's more of me than you. i feel so stupid for going on an empty trip. but then again, it's my fault. because i happily assumed. it's something really small but i just ended up having to take a long, emo ride home, closing my eyes and hoping that no one sees my tear-stained face. it'd have been terribly embarassing if anyone did.

now that i'm back home, no longer surrounded by people i know and having to wear a smile, i'm starting to sink back into depression. i'm just waiting for this feeling to pass. it eventually will i'm sure. and meanwhile, i shall pray. if worrying and feeling sad are unable to be of much help, yes pastor see, i will pray.


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3:32 PM



i'm pmsing.

i'm depressed. sigh. i don't know why but my heart just feels so heavy. i guess whenever i pms, i'll start thinking about ALOT of things in my life and get depressed over them. even though life is supposedly quite smooth-sailing for now. well, supposedly.

it's like, it seems like, just about ANYTHING can make me cry. my moods are so topsy-turvy. as flying without wings say "a simple line can make you laugh and cry". i just read poon's msg and... i just cried. i have no idea why too. it's nothing sad. i just felt a tug at my emotions for no rhyme or reason.

i thought of alot of things. oh yes i did. especially when i was bathing, when i had all the time in the world to mull things over, to ponder upon stuff which i usually don't when i'm not depressed. and maybe part of the reason of my depression is because i'm affected by the moods and emotions of the people around me, more than these people actually know. so friends out there, if there's any way i get to know about your sadness, please know that I FEEL FOR YOU OKAY. hmmm maybe not, but my mood definitely gets affected and i feel sad as well. and i don't know why. maybe you didn't know, but now you do.

maybe i'm just sad that i can't do anything to help you, to ease the pain that you try not to show to the world, to erase all your worries, your problems, your fears. because it's impossible. because i can't. because it's not up to me to do anything. because i'm pretty much useless when it comes to these as much as i want to be useful and to be of some help.

and then again, here i am worrying so much about other people, and i wonder whether any of them actually give a damn about me? whether these feelings are reciprocated? maybe i'm just feeling lonely, standing by myself in this lonesome battle. maybe that's why i'm depressed. and trust me, there are many more trains of thoughts that i will take forever to let out.

sigh. i'm feel so human.


there she goes
10:58 PM



i feel so weak and lousy and stupid.
i don't even know how to protect and defend myself.

sophia is right.
we girls should be tougher.
we're just too nice for our own good.
in the end people will just trample over us.

even though it's nothing terribly serious
but i'm still traumatised.

i should stop thinking about it.
but i just can't help but feel helpless. sigh.
i hope next time i'll have the courage to stand up for myself. for my dignity.


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9:27 PM



can't believe prelims are almost over.
(left with two emseekewws)

but then again,
we're perpetually preparing for A's.
so...
it's not over yet.
*frowns*

anyway people,
go get facebook!
it's really entertaining. heh.

i shall end off with a quote. (:

"Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important."
- Lisa Hoffman


there she goes
9:58 PM



round two of prelims started off in a bad note.

AHHH.
bio paper was tough and worst still, i'm falling ill.

and i've finally discovered the root cause of my persistent headaches.
OVER-SECRETION OF ADRENALINE.
yes yes sec 4 bio.
everytime i'll get super stressed and my body produces loads of adrenaline.
long term effects: fatigue and headaches! =(((

i'm like suffering from the after effects of too much stress and too little rest after the crazy week of hardcore mugging/memorizing.
i had to depend on coffee today to perk me up,
which actually puts me in a mentally-drained-but-not-sleepy state. how horrible!

i can't study now.
cos the more i do (like having to memorize stuff AGAIN, which requires much brainpower),
the more giddy i feel.

sighhhh. stupid cells. secrete so much adrenaline for what.


there she goes
8:57 PM



went to barrel bio with my valentine today!

hoboy we found out that both of us love bananas.
YES WE LOVE BANANAS.
so we decided to call ourselves "bananapals"! (not penpals haha)
poon must be shooting us a look of disgust. haha.
he hates bananas. =(
what a pity.

but i still love bananas!
ate one just now. (:

i played PUZZLE BOBBLE on valentine's phone.
got kinda addicted to it.
so i came home and downloaded the game.
oh darn. now i'll be really addicted to it.
it's destruct-o-match all over again!

ahhh what's wrong with me?
i'm as pale as a ghost now.
CANNOT FALL SICK AH.


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9:20 PM






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10:31 PM



i watched "the magic flute" yesterday night!
yeah the last opera mozart wrote before his death.
it's some metropolitan opera shown on the big screen at vivo gv max.
OPERA SIA.
my first!
this is the synopsis: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Magic_Flute

sadly it wasn't live. which would have been really ex.
and very far. (all the way at new york)
but it was cool nevertheless.

i loved the orchestra.
(i think i'm loving orchestra music more and more)
the level of coordination between the singers and the orchestra was amazing!
and the singers die die also must come in on time,
or else it'd have been super obvious.

but because it was a film of the opera, there were bound to be closeups of those singers.
and i thought it was quite turn-off.
they were not very goodlooking you see. (the superficial side of me heh)
and some didn't make proper eye contact!
like that sarastro! (chow yun fatt lookalike)
where got people sing halfway to someone then look elsewhere one.

but overall it was good la.
i feel so arty-farty watching the opera.
and the flute was in plastic!!
i was telling poon sekali can see saliva inside. hee.

anyway after that while waiting for a taxi there was this woman who puked.
probably some hangover after going to the st. james power station.
her aiming damn bad okay.
got plastic bag still puke all over the ground.
RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TAXI STAND.
she and her two croonies just left the smelly barfbag ON THE GROUND.
causing such a great gap and stinking up the whole place.
while the dustbin was just a few steps away.
many people were telling them to throw it away because it's their own rubbish.
but they just gave the bochap-i-am-right-you-are-wrong-so-shut-up look.
especially her 2 sidekicks, who were definitely not drunk.

wahlao. if they pangsai on the taxi stand they expect others to clear for them!?
aren't they like, let me see, DOGS?
they're really morally-hopeless pugs who were too proud for their own good.

ohyeah. in the end poon's mum went to get some security guards to tell them off.
but they still refused to budge.
in the end, they just hurried off the scene, leaving all the crap at the same place.
sigh. what irresponsible chickens.
and lousy security guards. what were they doing man!

rawr we should have snapped a photo.
then send to STOMP.
"UGLY SINGAPOREANS, INSIDE-OUT"
mwahaha so evil.
no la. i was just majorly pissed off at such attitude and injustice.
i think poon had to control me from lashing out at them.
oops violent me.


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9:13 PM