forgetful me actually forgot to do the SOVA essay during the hols and now van gogh's driving me crazy! SIGH.

actually today's a really depressing day.

okay firstly it's the 5th anniversary of the 9-11 bombings.

secondly, something terrible happened during bio lecture just now. while we were in the midst of going through our bio test, this boy suddenly gave a very scary cry and our lecturer suddenly ran towards him. we were all so freaked out and shocked. from what we heard, he was having fits and because he was also biting his tongue, the people around him had to force him to bite the chair in front of him. and he collapsed to the floor.

oh man. i heard that he got hospitalised but i really hope he's alright now. i've a feeling that it was some health problem. either that or it was due to stress. i dunno but i guess many of us were really shaken over this incident. pear and jingwen were commenting on the high stress level in singapore. i didn't know how to answer them, how to defend our education system. but i guess i don't blame them. esp with all these sad things happening around us.

i was having butterflies in my stomach after that. was feeling nauseous and queasy during GP. guess i'm the kind of person that gets really affected by such things. yeah. stuffed myself with pattaya rice after school and felt much better.

oh. have you ever gotten this feeling when you feel a sudden rush of blood to your brain and you just feel like screaming? then your head starts swimming and you feel like puking?

i feel like handing in a piece of blank paper to misschan. i was reading the depressing life story of van gogh just now and i felt so sad for him that i actually cried. silly me. i guess he's the only artist i could really feel so much for. that trampled soul of his. i have an urge to search for the letters he had written to his brother theo but that'll have to wait. after promos.

One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever came to sit by it. Passers-by see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on their way.
- Vincent Van Gogh

now i understand
what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free
they would not listen
they did not know how
perhaps they never will

i guess this will be my last entry till end of promos. on a brighter note, i end my promos one day earlier than most j1s. haha so while people are having their h1 papers, i'll be having a holiday! hahaha. but the downside of it is that mine is 3 hours long! until 4pm. CRAZY. even V&C was only 2h15min long.

all the best for promos! (:
thanks abang for your encouragement!


there she goes
11:33 PM