i shall aim to banish depressing entries from the face of this blog.

shall talk about... wan leng and pear! OH MY GOODNESS. they can sing really really really well. no kidding. they're like, POWERHOUSES! seriously, if i could sing like them, i would really quit school to pursue a singing career. perhaps go sing in some cafe like what szu xiang did. and we have so many good singers in our class! they should all go form a singing group or something. or class choir.

can't wait for wan leng and pear's council campaign. they're going to sing and mesmerize everyone with their beautiful voices. when i say beautiful, i really mean beautiful. today i was relegated to merely a listener as 2 of them plus eunice sang songs at the fitness corner. i couldn't bring myself to sing in front of them because my singing is simply pale in comparison with theirs. and they were so humble okay!

aiyah. some people just have the talent. and coincidentally it's the talent that i've always wanted since young. but too bad lah, i just don't have it. i'll probably just create more noise than music if i open my mouth. and the world doesn't become a better place because of my singing even though i love to sing.

anyway, i'm having mixed emotions regarding perth:
1) i have no idea whether i'll be allowed to go or not.
2) even if i can go, i don't know whether i can learn all the pieces in time AND sound good.
3) i feel that i'm letting down the saxtion cos alto sax 2 will just DIE with me.
4) i'm scared of pulling down the high standard of the band with my horrible playing.
5) the trip sounds like a whole lot of fun and i really want to go.
6) but i'm afraid i'll end up being depressed due to all the reasons listed above.
7) and i still have no idea whether i can go or not.

AIYOHH. what most have learnt in 4-5 years, we have to learn in 4-5 months. you can't deny it, but it is stressful.

okay i shall not wallow in self-pity. sax is waiting for me in my living room. thanks jiahao for helping me and eunice carry instruments. but he should thank us too cos he probably feels more mascular (and masculine?) right now.

oh! the flowers eef gave are blossoming! he gave them to everyone in the saxtion. high class white roses (<3!) and white lilies with water tubes at the end of the stalks. i named mine "dorthy". so pretty okay.

randomness: i miss mr ellis and mr lim and mrs teo and ALL THE AEP GIRLS! mr ellis' funny and animated jokes during v&c. mr lim's lameness. not forgetting his revolution. mrs teo's CRAZY ANTICS. those 4 years in the art rooms...


there she goes
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