well, band retreat's over and it wasn't really what i had expected it to be. i guess hafiz's accident really had a strong impact on me. andrew was damn right. even though that night miss ho announced that he was alright, but what probably mattered more to hafiz was the aftermath of the injury, not the pain and the blood lost.

and now without him, i'm more stressed than ever. what vp said was so true, you'll never know what's going to happen until God blows the whistle for full time. i was already close to tears during the saxtion talk. and so was ansley. but thank God for that singing session. it miraculously lifted my spirit.

hafiz. TAKE CARE and stay strong okay. the whole band will always be behind you. i know it's really saddening but hang on! things will be back to normal someday. and one day the saxtion will welcome you back with open arms.

ansley. have faith girl! don't be too disheartened by what he said. you can do it and i have absolute faith in you. and THANKS for your help and guidance, esp. during this period of time. all the clappings, the "1, 2 and breathe!", the encouragement. boy i really admire your patience. thanks and BE STRONG.

xiaowei. thanks for those encouraging words you said that night under the stars. they really helped boost my morale. thanks for believing in us. you must jiayou too! ruth has told me how stressed out you are. and sorry for pangseh-ing you and ansley to sleep in the bandroom.

alison! thanks so much for being with me during the camp, esp at the time when i was feeling down. thanks for accompanying me throughout the night. walking around school, listening to band music from the mp3 on the track until we fell asleep, bathing late, going to 7-11 with me at 3am to buy food. you made me feel much better. LOVE!

last but definitely not least,
eunice! gosh i was so worried for you on sat can! i know i've said this the upteenth times but we must JIAYOU okay. studies, band, your pre-u seminar, and everything. not forgetting the fanfare. i've come to a conclusion that as long as we've tried our very best, we have nothing to fear, not even him. (you know who lah)

on a brighter note, iCtalent was superb! eunice and i skipped dinner outside with our retreat groups just to go support yee hsu. and guess what? he won 1st place! solo category. we're so proud of him, s15's very own rockstar. 500bucks in the pocket and a year worth of lessons with lee wei song and co. OWNAGE!

i must say this.. who's that siaodingdong who set an alarm with a sadistic happy tree friends tune and didn't switch it off!? it woke me up at 6plus! the worse thing was, the phone was somewhere in the pile of shoebags above my head and it kept playing every now and then, sending chills all over my body. addison (i think, too dark cannot see) and i finally couldn't stand it and tried searching for that thing. but couldn't. ahhhh! eerie.


there she goes
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