a week more to the june holidays. LOOKING FORWARD TO IT MAN. we need a break.

i miss the secondary school lifestyle. i really miss the late-afternoon-after-school carefree feeling back in nanyang. the school compound wasn't completely empty as there were always random people around but i was able to find peace almost anywhere. (despite the high stress level in sec4)

i remember those moments of strolling around school for little talks and chitchats with a friend or two. i remember those late lunches with classmates or aepmates in the quiet canteen. i remember walking slowly to popular and back to the artroom with fellow slackers. those peaceful moments without much distraction.

but now, somehow the college always seems to be flooded with people at almost every single corner and sometimes it's just so hard to find peace and quietness anywhere. it's also hard to find a good place and good time to have a good talk with someone. and i'm not really a crowd-person you know. crowds make me feel lost and insecure.

i was pissed last friday cos the esplanade was suddenly and unusually crowded with people.

boy am i grateful for those benches outside the sc. all those times spent doing individuals at that place were really memorable. despite the fact that the whole cafe/gallery can probably hear us (which = embarassment), but it is actually one of the more peaceful areas in school for me. it's an area of significance for me, really.

speaking of significance, over the week, animations medley has become significant to me too. i was just going through the piece in my head during math yesterday and tears suddenly sprang to my eyes. luckily i stopped thinking about it or else i'll probably freak people out again. thinking about animations just reminds me of this rocky phase in life i'm going through and with loads of things not functioning smoothly.

which reminds me of what brien said last week. he said that nothing is constant, not even sadness, and there're probably some lessons to learn from all these downs in life. however a lame person he can be, but man those words are so true! and as what teck said during class, when God gives you lemons, make lemonade.


there she goes
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